Monday, January 10, 2005

I won't be lost in these watered down dreams...

Here we are in a new year...
Every year we get the chance to start again and we have high hopes that this year it will be different, this is the year where we really live and all the trouble and complications will pass us by... But it never lasts.

My Rach is back from South Africa but in only a week Innis will be gone to France. And a couple days ago they both announce that they aren't going to be able to live here next year. Just like that HICE ceases to exist, no warning, its just over. And today Matt ends up in the hospital with meningitis...

The fantasy lasted approximately 5 days...

This is the year I turn 22 on the 22nd... Ash tells me that this is going to be the greatest year of our life... and no matter what happens we are going to keep telling ourselves that it is the greatest year of our life... we are not to let anything ruin it!

Already this is a struggle for me, where did I lose my optimism?

Father God my life is designed by You, help me see the beauty and joy in each and every day...

"The hurt is washed away
still here i am
in the middle of it all
with heavy hands
and i try so hard
just to leave behind me
all the chains that bind me

i wont back down
wont turn my head around
quick, take a recess
oops, take another breath
guess who, whose you, better take another clue
find out all about, just dont doubt
just dont doubt

And i wont be lost
in these watered down dreams
surround me i wont be
caught up in the moment of the day, yeah
and i wont be lost
in these watered down dreams
surround me i wont be
caught up in the moment of the day" - Moment of the Day - By Thousand Foot Krutch