Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Standing with my empty hands stretched towards heaven...

God please let me get this job... it sounds perfect... yet not my will but Yours be done...
I stand with empty hands stretched towards heaven... waiting for you to fill them...

Monday, March 28, 2005

Its hard to keep your feet on the ground when your eyes are on the stars...

The chilly grey day and mountians of school work are definately made lighter and brighter by phone calls from across the ocean! So good to hear that south african accent again! I can't even remember the last time I had an actual conversation with Jess, and I can't believe its been well over a year since I last saw her!! I miss that girl so much! I must say that it is hard to get back into school work when your imagination is ignited by tales of world travel, love, and wedding plans... but I guess I'll just have to live vicariously through Jess for now...
one day its going to be my feet traversing the globe and my heart that falls in love...
but for now I have an apprenticeship report to write...

Saturday, March 26, 2005

A gypsy princess fighting for freedom...

At the Stars - Howie Day

maybe i should drop you at you door
and leave tonight and vanish up the shore
anywhere but here
it's three o'clock i'm driving in your car
your screaming out the window at the stars
please don't drive me home

blame us cause we are who we are
hate us cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose that you would go
i've already learned enough to know that...

tell me all the places we can go
you count the headlights passing on the road
a long long time ago

blame us cause we are who we are
hate us cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose that you would go
i've already learned enough to know that...

here here we are foreign to their world
straight and composed
your sermons i can do without
i've finally found that
everybody loves to love you
when you're far away

could it be we've done something wrong
i'll make it back to your place before dawn
please don't drive me home
please don't take me home

blame us cause we are who we are
hate us cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose that you would go
i've already learned enough to know that...



I came across this song a few weeks ago and have been listening to it nonstop... there is something about it that really touches to me... I'm not really sure what... I think it speaks to the part of me that feels out of place and is yearning to escape, travel, have experiences, not just live a life that follows the status quo...
I hope that I actually live that desire out. Sometimes I'm afraid that I'm never going to do any of the things my heart desires and just follow the sensible path thats before me...
God don't let me give up on my dreams...


My friend Linds was here to visit last night... I love that girl so much... I hate that she hurts... it was really awesome to see her... she makes me feel happy and always loved

It time to get back to essay writing, this is probably one of the most philosophical essay's I've ever had to write. The question is: Is there a way to empirically measure what is good and what is evil? I hate needing to make philosophical decisions about life before I can do an assignment... but I guess its good to stretch my mind like that... I like thinking about this kind of stuff, just not making decisions... oh well we'll see how it goes!

Thursday, March 17, 2005

All I want to do is give this life to you...

"Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can PRAY. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins. Offer hospitatlity to one another without grumbling. Each on should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If enayone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen."
-1Peter 4:7-11

I went on a retreat with The Embassy last weekend, one of the exercises we did was a labrynth which was amazing! At one of the stations we were asked, where has God brought you lately? And I realized that I haven't gone anywhere, I haven't grown, my spiritual life has become stagnant. I've let myself be swayed by the relativist opinions of those around me and let my life overflow with things that aren't God... I need to get back on track.... draw me to you oh Lord!