Thursday, June 30, 2005

Age is a state of mind...

The other day I was thinking back to grade six when I was in the V.I.P. program, that stands for Values Influences, and Peers, the Catholic school board's attempt on keeping us away from drugs and alcohol (I don't think it worked very well, a couple girls in my class were kicked out of the program for bringing mushrooms to school... we were 12!) and I remembered that the police officer who was running it had us promise that we would never try smoking until we were 21, because apparently if you don't smoke before you are 21 you are unlikely to ever start. So basically, I can start smoking now and not have broken my promise... haha. But I can remember how old 21 seemed way back then, I don't know what I pictured it to be like, but I don't think this is it! Don't misinterpret, I have been extatically happy with who I am and what my life is like lately, but I always thought 21 would be older... and I'm soooo glad that its not, I'm definately not in a rush to "grow up", I fully intend on flitting around, wandering the world, and not settling down into a job and a grown up life for a loooong time. When I was in Jarvis this weekend we were hanging out with Ash's friend John and his housemates and I found out later that one of the girls was 29!!! I never would have guessed... it turns out that 30 is alot younger than you might have thought... getting older is weird!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Look out world... here I come!

57 minutes after midnight... its officially my 22nd birthday! That's right, turning 22 on the 22nd, Ash and I have decided that this is our year... start it off with our champaigne birthday and hopefully it will be fun and excitment from here on out! If you think about it, big stuff is definately going to happen... after all we are graduating university this year!!!! How crazy is that? I can't believe how fast the last 3 and a half years have flown by... and now suddenly we are supposed to be ready for the real world?? yeah right! But it is exciting, we have the whole world and our whole lives open in front of us!

So, to start this off right, I want to commit this year into God's hands. I know He has made me for a purpose, He has awesome plans for my life, I just pray that I can live up to who He made me to be... Lord, mold me, guide me, give me wisdom and courage to step out and do the things that scare me... cuz the things that scare you are usually the most worthwhile... let this year be great!

The year of Sara and Ash... starts... NOW!!!!!

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Angels, demons, and ghosts...

I'm a very skittish person. If I watch a scary movie it can take weeks, months, until I stop being afraid. Slasher movies are ok, like Scream or I Know What You Did Last Summer, the killer is always one of their friends, and I'm pretty confident that my friends aren't that insane (I mean, they can be pretty crazy but they are harmless ;) haha. Its the one's that deal with the supernatural that really get to me. After I saw The Sixth Sense I would come close to having anxiety attacks in broad day light because I would think of something from the movie and freak out... I'm weird like that.
When I lived at home I would freak out on a regular basis, I always felt like there was something in my room, but since I moved to Waterloo I've been pretty calm and put together, even when I've been living on my own... until Monday night. I got into a really long conversation with some people about things like speaking in tongues and manifestations of the holy spirit and other crazy Pentacostel stuff that I have little to no experience with. It was all good and fine until they started talking about being able to see angels and demons... I don't know what I believe about all that, I believe they experienced something, I know they aren't lying to me, but I have no experience to base any decision on in that department... but that's kind of beside the point.
The point is... it freaked the crap out of me! When I was trying to go to sleep that night I would freak out every five or ten minutes and have to turn the light on... its not good to be living along while you are scared to death... I've got to learn to keep my fears under control. If anyone wants to sleep over and protect me let me know! haha