don't give up

the last piece of the puzzle slides into place
in the shape of a frenzied story told long ago
a memory to which the only response is profanity

the complexity of her ongoing nightmare
leaves us sifting through the rubble of her brokenness
hoping to interpret her gut-wrenching signs of distress

before its too late

The Darkness Will Not Hide Me

This is a test

Do you really believe what you say you believe
When you say you will meet me where I am
Just how deep will you go to reach me before you turn back

How far into the darkness will you walk beside me
While your soul trembles and your heart breaks
What do I have to do before you go away


This is the answer

You can walk away from me but I will not walk away from you
My soul will tremble, my heart will break, and tears will fall
But even while I shake I will stand beside you in the darkness
Illuminating the path that leads to the light
Praying for the chains to be broken
Waiting to hold your hand when you are ready
To take that first brave step 


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If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.                  [Psalm 139:11-12]

Things I would tell you...

• Sometimes you look at where you are and realize that when you choose a path it is to the exclusion of all other paths. Today feels heavy with lives unlived.
• I really wish I got along better with thunderstorms.
• What if the dentist is really a con-artist? Oh I have a tiny cavity that I don't feel and can't see? Sure drill away!
• We are, all of us, light filled. Honour each other's light.

In July I was...

Listening... to leaked songs from the new albums by Sara Bareilles and The Civil Wars
Reading... a tonne of books while on vacation
Watching... the first season of The New Girl all in one day
Eating... s'mores by the campfire
Drinking... coffee, coffee and more coffee
Wearing... sunscreen every day, no sunburns for this girl
Feeling... tired and grateful
Wanting... a longer vacation
Needing... to figure out a new rule of life
Thinking... about sustainability
Enjoying... a week at the cottage with great friends, great food, great weather, and great books