I hate feeling frustrated with people.
It feels like knots in my stomach, tightness in my throat, agitation in my limbs.
These body feelings are followed by swirls of self doubt:
Do I have any right to be frustrated?
Is the problem really theirs? or am I in the wrong?
Do they care enough about me to want to hear my feelings?
Will talking about how I feel result in a bigger conflict? a broken relationship?
I'm uncomfortable with the way things are now
and I'm uncomfortable with the potential consequences of making it different.