I am a good listener
I can take whatever you say to me
and not react
absorb it into me
and mull it over
ask you questions
to clarify your thoughts and feelings
but not show you how I feel
about what you have just revealed
But when I walk away
your words continue to echo
my feelings swell
and my mind races
I don't know what to do
with the reactions
that I can no longer suppress
Now I am alone
with what I didn't show you
because I am a good listener.
I'm starting to think that boys have no concept of the effect that they have on girls.
Did you really think you could say sweet things to a girl every day and not have her fall for you?
Do they mean to give mixed messages? Or are they just hopelessly clueless?
(which less face it, would make them even more adorable)
Or maybe its not the boys
Maybe I'm the one who's clueless and I just don't know how to read their signals
I have no answers
I guess I'll just continue to be confused...
I'm deliciously tired...
Its not the warn out tired, the kind that tells me I've been doing too much
Its the content tired that comes from spending a weekend hanging out with friends and staying up late chatting
A satisfied tired that is the consequence of time well spent
It reminds of my need for Sabbath
Its something I've been reading about, thinking about, praying about
This morning Brandon spoke about it
Its a change I know I need to make
Something God is calling me to
I'm just not sure how it looks or where it fits
I'm still searching...