Saturday, February 10, 2007

The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love...

The last entry in my prayer journal for 2006 reads:
"I pray that this new year would be a time of renewal and growth, especially in my relationships. For the amazing people in my life, even as our lives draw us to different places, I pray that you would knit us together, that we would grow closer and give love and strength to each other through these times of transition. And Father I pray that you would bring new people into my life that will walk this journey beside me and that you would give me wisdom and discernment in choosing who to give my heart to."
A few weeks after writing this my heart got terribly hurt, and I wanted to curl up and not let anyone in ever again. I didn't see why I should bother with growing close to people, if those who I had allowed into my innermost self could shut me out and not even care. 

But God is faithful, and even though I was rebelling against the thought of intimacy, the friends God put in my life poured themselves out to me and challenged me to do the same.

God, thank you for the amazing people you have put in my life...  I pray that you would continue to answer my prayer... and rid me of all but love...