I think we underestimate how difficult change is. A change in circumstance is hard enough, but a change in your being? Its going to take all that you've got.
With the youth I work with, often their parents get frustrated with their lack of follow through but I often want to ask them if they've tried to make any changes lately - lose weight, change your diet, go to bed on time, stop being late - its hard enough as adults to make these changes, try to being a teenager trying to stop using an addictive substance!
I have the ability to pursue an opportunity for change at my job. There are warring instincts within me as I consider this chance... one part that is still a student and gets antsy every four months wishing for a change in semesters and another that fears change and questions my worth and ability in the face of every challenge, one part is ambitious and looking towards my future, the other enjoys the comfort and safety of what is known.
The url for this blog is couragelove, when I was doing my practicum placement I had the saying "Courage my Love" posted on my wall and in my agenda to remind me to be brave and to be kind to myself. Perhaps I need to start reminding myself again...
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Anyway...Isn't it hard to sort through all the emotions, fears & excitement of change? I struggle with knowing why I want the change. Is okay to want to change? Am I just bored? Am I seeking something not worth being sought? Or, am I being called to a new level? Maybe I shy away because it will means disciplining myself or learning a new skill? Maybe I want it because I want to be noticed and recognized? At some point I just need to stop asking all these questions and just go for something. But I'm often reminded that staying right where I am in a intentional way can be change too. Know what I mean? :)
I'm comforted to hear that you have this running commentary going on in your head too Sarah! Whenever I let people in on the stream of questions running through my mind when I'm trying to make a decision they always end up surprised and overwhelmed... so I'm glad to know I'm not the only one!ReplyDelete